puppy love

in my last entry, i mention about puppy love...how it can effect your whole life???it depends on how u carry it, sometimes the wind that goes by, might be really helpful, but sometimes when that wind turns into endless storm, well u will know what i mean...wanna know mine?????

i met my very true first love in my first year as junior high school, as in my first year, it was very confusing+ with all the controversy i created, to attract attention from boys, yeah boys...when i met him, i never thought that i will be with him...by the end of the year, I end it up by saying Watashi wa anataga aishiteru...yes it was sweet..
day by days, months by months, i end up to be with him for almost two and a quarter years...well, it didn't end up well as you thought..but i find it way back home, and yet i met another men..as year passing by, i realized that not love that i seek out for in high school, it gotta be education..so get back up...and my high school moment end up very sweet with the straight 6 A's for my spm...i counted how many guys i met after the first heart broken???? the number means nothing but for certain people, '6' can described how i treated man through out those years...

i am more than happy enough to say that campus life is better without man by my side...

campus life

tak tau lan nape malam ni aku rasa frust sangat...online banyak2 sebab nak ilangkan tension...teringat kat dia..bagi yang bukan rumet aku mungkin tak tau sape si dia tu..entahlah, sometimes rasa cam tension plak bila pikir pasal die..one of my rumet pernah tanye, "still hoping lagi ke kat dia"..well u don't understand people. this is not an ordinary crush u people thought of, this is purely a true love that even i don't really get it..susah lah...and actually that is one of the biggest reason kenapa aku buat keputusan yang sangat besar next sem....mesti semua orang terkejut..tapi if aku ditakdirkan terpaksa hadap muka dia hari-hari, rasanya, aku mesti tak leh nak focus kat study, well talking about study, ada lagi one year before aku graduate, and if you have to ask me, campus life is the one that you never wanted to erase from your memory. because that is the time when people start getting mature (tak tau lah certain people yang still immatured tu kan), and that is the time when you start to learn the real love is, bukan puppy love yang kita selalu banggakan tu...bila dah kat campus ni, barulah sedar, apa yang cikgu2 dulu kat sekolah cakap pasal puppy love tu, yang dia tak kekal, bleh buat kita hilang focus dalam study, it was actually 100% true..so people out there, especially high schooler, jangan lah bercinta macam nak rak sampai nak abai pelajaran semua, tapi bila difikirkan balik, lebih baik bercinta masa sekolah, dah rasa masam manis nye, daripada ditinggalkna dan rasa perasaan dikecewakan when you're at the highest point in your life, campus life...